Alone with myself
My heart's in a box
On the topshelf safe
Where nobody knows
The tables have turned
No blackwaters deep
To dive in head first
Where nobody goes
And I daydream at night
Now that you're not here
You said goodbye
Without going anywhere
I always want what I cannot have
Love makes you happy and sad
Love makes you happy and sad
The curtain has closed
Tell me now where did our love go?
Nobody knows
Loves Makes You Happy and Sad
By Gregory Page
This is a really pretty song. I listen to it when I am feeling sappy.
I highly recommend giving it a listen to.
Jonathan
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Happy
You know, sometimes it is just nice to sit back, relax, and enjoy the company of a loving god.
After all, how often do you just feel genuinely happy?
Jonathan
After all, how often do you just feel genuinely happy?
Jonathan
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Summer
If my Junior year was a time tearing me down, then this summer has been a time of building me up.
I feel like over last year while porn was something I managed stay away from, I felt pretty dead inside for the most part. While porn was something I dealt with pretty much all Summer, I honestly would rather be dealing with that than feel dead inside. So while my issues pretty much switched this summer, oddly enough I would rather it be that way. Not to say that I want to deal with either of them, really. I am just saying that in my heart I would rather struggle with porn than not feel alive in Christ or in anything for that matter. I guess that is a really backwards way of thinking, but I was talking to God about that in the 40 room. All that said I feel quite well these days, and am planning on continuing to work at my current struggles(with the help of some close friends).
The Summer was a rather lovely time, though. I got to be a leader-type figure on two mission trips, along with Xtreme VBS. On a more personally exciting note, I also finished my first 4 part EP this Summer for the South Africa. Not that it was at the quality of even the first Student Life EP, but I really loved getting to really take on and finish a whole project like that. Along with all that, there was plenty of time to play with my band and work on that, as well as just being friends I care about and love dearly. All that said, it was a very full Summer with plenty of new experiences and times of relaxing.
Almost makes me teary eyed thinking about all that happened this Summer, really. Not even the big events, but just getting to enjoy the simple company of friends. Pardon me for rambling. As a Senior citizen, I am old and my mind is frail, causing me to reminisce on past events in history. Anyways, time to pick out my Senior Coffin. :P
Throughout life we will find that in everywhere we look it's all crazy! it's all false! it's all a dream! it's alright!
In everywhere we look...
Jonathan
P.S. Having internship with Jake and Creative Writing with Kathleen along with no Math is basically going to be the equivalent of a totally kick-butt* year!
*censored in respect to potential minors reading the above text.
I feel like over last year while porn was something I managed stay away from, I felt pretty dead inside for the most part. While porn was something I dealt with pretty much all Summer, I honestly would rather be dealing with that than feel dead inside. So while my issues pretty much switched this summer, oddly enough I would rather it be that way. Not to say that I want to deal with either of them, really. I am just saying that in my heart I would rather struggle with porn than not feel alive in Christ or in anything for that matter. I guess that is a really backwards way of thinking, but I was talking to God about that in the 40 room. All that said I feel quite well these days, and am planning on continuing to work at my current struggles(with the help of some close friends).
The Summer was a rather lovely time, though. I got to be a leader-type figure on two mission trips, along with Xtreme VBS. On a more personally exciting note, I also finished my first 4 part EP this Summer for the South Africa. Not that it was at the quality of even the first Student Life EP, but I really loved getting to really take on and finish a whole project like that. Along with all that, there was plenty of time to play with my band and work on that, as well as just being friends I care about and love dearly. All that said, it was a very full Summer with plenty of new experiences and times of relaxing.
Almost makes me teary eyed thinking about all that happened this Summer, really. Not even the big events, but just getting to enjoy the simple company of friends. Pardon me for rambling. As a Senior citizen, I am old and my mind is frail, causing me to reminisce on past events in history. Anyways, time to pick out my Senior Coffin. :P
Throughout life we will find that in everywhere we look it's all crazy! it's all false! it's all a dream! it's alright!
In everywhere we look...
Jonathan
P.S. Having internship with Jake and Creative Writing with Kathleen along with no Math is basically going to be the equivalent of a totally kick-butt* year!
*censored in respect to potential minors reading the above text.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Doves
"Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest..."
-Psalm 55:6
I don't know why, but I just really found that quite lovely
and felt compelled to share it.
I guess it's just because the idea of peace has always sounded really nice to me.
Not saying that I am without peace.
But just the idea of flying away to a distant land and being able to fill my lungs
full of air. Living life.
Benjamin Button teaches that our lives are defined by opportunities taken and missed.
Like, yesterday, Chris and I were going to go to the park to hang out, but instead we hung around outside my house and played music. Two men came and hung out with us. One of them was pretty blown away by the fact we could listen to a song and play along with it.
But that's besides the point.
What I'm saying is that we could have gone to the park and had an okay time, but life thew another opportunity when we chose to go a different path. So we missed one opportunity to go to the park, but gained another to meet new people and enjoy their company. Who knows what we missed by going to the park? Nobody really(God doesn't count because he's God).
Anyways, if this sounds like I'm rambling, it's because I am.
Hope you enjoyed some of my thoughts and are all enjoying your life. :)
Jonathan
I would fly away and be at rest..."
-Psalm 55:6
I don't know why, but I just really found that quite lovely
and felt compelled to share it.
I guess it's just because the idea of peace has always sounded really nice to me.
Not saying that I am without peace.
But just the idea of flying away to a distant land and being able to fill my lungs
full of air. Living life.
Benjamin Button teaches that our lives are defined by opportunities taken and missed.
Like, yesterday, Chris and I were going to go to the park to hang out, but instead we hung around outside my house and played music. Two men came and hung out with us. One of them was pretty blown away by the fact we could listen to a song and play along with it.
But that's besides the point.
What I'm saying is that we could have gone to the park and had an okay time, but life thew another opportunity when we chose to go a different path. So we missed one opportunity to go to the park, but gained another to meet new people and enjoy their company. Who knows what we missed by going to the park? Nobody really(God doesn't count because he's God).
Anyways, if this sounds like I'm rambling, it's because I am.
Hope you enjoyed some of my thoughts and are all enjoying your life. :)
Jonathan
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Porn
Hey. I've gotten pretty jacked up with porn lately, not gunna lie.
It's just so hard to care, if that makes sense.
But honestly, it's been so long that you forget how degrading it
is of women. This might sound weird but I seriously stopped and wondered
what was really going on here. Where she came from and what brought her
to that place. It breaks my heart, really.
But like I was saying, in the moment, it's hard to care.
I guess I'm just going to have to keep working at it.
In other news BOTH EPs are going pretty well.
I should be wrapping up the very final details and finishing up the South Africa EP by Thursday.
It will have been my first fully completed project, so that's exciting. I wish the whole project could have
been done at my house, though. But it should sound fine.
The Drifts EP(It's not really The Drifts, but I still call it that because I like the name) is coming along more slowly than I was hoping. We are done with two of the songs, so that's progress I guess. We're just going to keep picking away at it until we're done I guess. That's a bigger deal to me than the South Africa EP as far as finishing it. It's way more personal to me because it's music that I've had a part in making it what it is. You should check out our new song: How Long and let me know what you think of it. www.myspace.com/thedrifts4
This whole recording process has been kind of like if Hell suddenly decided to become enjoyable.
As if that makes any sense unless you've done this. :P
And last but not least: Six Flags on Saturday.
Oh, and apparently I'm heading out to Raleigh, North Carolina for the SHIFT mission trip. Weird.
I think that about covers my whole life right now :)
Jonathan
P.S. How are all two of you that read this doing? :P
It's just so hard to care, if that makes sense.
But honestly, it's been so long that you forget how degrading it
is of women. This might sound weird but I seriously stopped and wondered
what was really going on here. Where she came from and what brought her
to that place. It breaks my heart, really.
But like I was saying, in the moment, it's hard to care.
I guess I'm just going to have to keep working at it.
In other news BOTH EPs are going pretty well.
I should be wrapping up the very final details and finishing up the South Africa EP by Thursday.
It will have been my first fully completed project, so that's exciting. I wish the whole project could have
been done at my house, though. But it should sound fine.
The Drifts EP(It's not really The Drifts, but I still call it that because I like the name) is coming along more slowly than I was hoping. We are done with two of the songs, so that's progress I guess. We're just going to keep picking away at it until we're done I guess. That's a bigger deal to me than the South Africa EP as far as finishing it. It's way more personal to me because it's music that I've had a part in making it what it is. You should check out our new song: How Long and let me know what you think of it. www.myspace.com/thedrifts4
This whole recording process has been kind of like if Hell suddenly decided to become enjoyable.
As if that makes any sense unless you've done this. :P
And last but not least: Six Flags on Saturday.
Oh, and apparently I'm heading out to Raleigh, North Carolina for the SHIFT mission trip. Weird.
I think that about covers my whole life right now :)
Jonathan
P.S. How are all two of you that read this doing? :P
Monday, June 8, 2009
Becky
Hey! I got back from DC yesterday and it was quite a trip.
I spent ten hours planning next year at ALTAER with Jake.
Then ten hours planning on the way back.
The second day there we went out into the city just to hang out
with different people around town. I took Becky and Kara with me
to go talk to this homeless man named Larry. Really cool guy. He was
having problems getting a shelter because in order to get a shelter you have
to send an address, but he was homeless. Anyways, we ended up praying for him,
and afterwards Becky was saying that was the first time she had prayed out loud for
someone. It really was cool to see her step up.
This happened time and time again with the younger ones in my team.
Some talked to the homeless.
Others to the elder.
A few gathered the guts to ask restaurants for extra food to feed the homeless.
Sure I stepped in and tried to set the pace, but after I stepped back, they took the reigns.
Just the fact that they were once these immature SHIFT kids a few weeks prior and were
now growing into these beautiful women and strong men after God.
Still, when it comes down to it, what they are going with these experiences is up to them.
I have been around Student Life for six years and have seen some people take them and run
with it, and others forget and drift away.
I pray they will choose continue to pursue God.
If you want to hear about all the little details, you can talk to me or borrow my journal or something.
Glad to be back, though :)
Jonathan
I spent ten hours planning next year at ALTAER with Jake.
Then ten hours planning on the way back.
The second day there we went out into the city just to hang out
with different people around town. I took Becky and Kara with me
to go talk to this homeless man named Larry. Really cool guy. He was
having problems getting a shelter because in order to get a shelter you have
to send an address, but he was homeless. Anyways, we ended up praying for him,
and afterwards Becky was saying that was the first time she had prayed out loud for
someone. It really was cool to see her step up.
This happened time and time again with the younger ones in my team.
Some talked to the homeless.
Others to the elder.
A few gathered the guts to ask restaurants for extra food to feed the homeless.
Sure I stepped in and tried to set the pace, but after I stepped back, they took the reigns.
Just the fact that they were once these immature SHIFT kids a few weeks prior and were
now growing into these beautiful women and strong men after God.
Still, when it comes down to it, what they are going with these experiences is up to them.
I have been around Student Life for six years and have seen some people take them and run
with it, and others forget and drift away.
I pray they will choose continue to pursue God.
If you want to hear about all the little details, you can talk to me or borrow my journal or something.
Glad to be back, though :)
Jonathan
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Late
Well I'll tell you all the dreams I've had
I'll write them in a song
Feelings from my pens and paper
They ain't right or wrong
Sometimes my heart breaks into pieces
And I ain't where I belong
Out of my tree is what I'm feeling
But that ain't right or wrong
There's just one thing for certain
I promise you will see
It's never too late to be the person
That you were meant to be
Well I traveled all the way to Melbourne
It feels just like my home
Down Chapel Street, no one sees ya
But that ain't right or wrong
Miles away I have this thought
So I wrote it in a song
In a God I'm a true believer
I may be right or wrong
There's just one thing for certian
I promise you will see
It's never too late to be the person
That you were meant to be
While a princess waits for her prince charming
But he may never come
Who says fairy tales can't harm you?
But they ain't right or wrong
And all the friends I've made along the way
And those who are gone
They didn't know how to leave or stay
But that ain't right or wrong
There's just one thing for certian
I promise you will see
It's never too late to be the person
That you were meant to be
I'll tell you all the dreams I've had
Then wake up from my sleep...
Right or Wrong by Gregory Page
Jonathan
I'll write them in a song
Feelings from my pens and paper
They ain't right or wrong
Sometimes my heart breaks into pieces
And I ain't where I belong
Out of my tree is what I'm feeling
But that ain't right or wrong
There's just one thing for certain
I promise you will see
It's never too late to be the person
That you were meant to be
Well I traveled all the way to Melbourne
It feels just like my home
Down Chapel Street, no one sees ya
But that ain't right or wrong
Miles away I have this thought
So I wrote it in a song
In a God I'm a true believer
I may be right or wrong
There's just one thing for certian
I promise you will see
It's never too late to be the person
That you were meant to be
While a princess waits for her prince charming
But he may never come
Who says fairy tales can't harm you?
But they ain't right or wrong
And all the friends I've made along the way
And those who are gone
They didn't know how to leave or stay
But that ain't right or wrong
There's just one thing for certian
I promise you will see
It's never too late to be the person
That you were meant to be
I'll tell you all the dreams I've had
Then wake up from my sleep...
Right or Wrong by Gregory Page
Jonathan
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