Summer

If my Junior year was a time tearing me down, then this summer has been a time of building me up.

I feel like over last year while porn was something I managed stay away from, I felt pretty dead inside for the most part. While porn was something I dealt with pretty much all Summer, I honestly would rather be dealing with that than feel dead inside. So while my issues pretty much switched this summer, oddly enough I would rather it be that way. Not to say that I want to deal with either of them, really. I am just saying that in my heart I would rather struggle with porn than not feel alive in Christ or in anything for that matter. I guess that is a really backwards way of thinking, but I was talking to God about that in the 40 room. All that said I feel quite well these days, and am planning on continuing to work at my current struggles(with the help of some close friends).

The Summer was a rather lovely time, though. I got to be a leader-type figure on two mission trips, along with Xtreme VBS. On a more personally exciting note, I also finished my first 4 part EP this Summer for the South Africa. Not that it was at the quality of even the first Student Life EP, but I really loved getting to really take on and finish a whole project like that. Along with all that, there was plenty of time to play with my band and work on that, as well as just being friends I care about and love dearly. All that said, it was a very full Summer with plenty of new experiences and times of relaxing.

Almost makes me teary eyed thinking about all that happened this Summer, really. Not even the big events, but just getting to enjoy the simple company of friends. Pardon me for rambling. As a Senior citizen, I am old and my mind is frail, causing me to reminisce on past events in history. Anyways, time to pick out my Senior Coffin. :P

Throughout life we will find that in everywhere we look it's all crazy! it's all false! it's all a dream! it's alright!
In everywhere we look...

Jonathan

P.S. Having internship with Jake and Creative Writing with Kathleen along with no Math is basically going to be the equivalent of a totally kick-butt* year!
*censored in respect to potential minors reading the above text.