Dream

I know I just posted two days ago, but I felt like I should write this down.

So the idea of dreaming has been following me around for the past two days,

and I like to imagine stuff like that isn't a coincidence.

On Sunday I was still really distraught about my whole future thing and my thought life was pretty infested with it. I was basically miserable whenever I wasn't doing anything and had time to think about it.

So anyways, at church there was a band that played called Fade into Focus(they're pretty good), and they were talking about dreaming big and moving in the direction of where your dreams were. I went up to talk to some of the guys playing-Cameron and Preston for a few-cool guys.

Today I was at school and my math  teacher has all of these random posters that are actually pretty genuinely encouraging. I saw one today in the back of the room I hadn't seen before-it said "Move confidently in the direction of your dreams". 

Kind of  crazy really.

When I got home I was doing a bible study based on the Vision poem and it talked about having dreams, but doing more than having dreams. A huge part of it is actually acting on my dreams and passions.  

All of this was really encouraging to me and really gave me a lot of peace that God  knows what he's doing. And I know that he knows what he's doing, but it helps to be reminded of it. 

In the mean time, I'll just be pursuing my dreams and passions :)

-Jonathan

Today

Earlier this week I ended up getting kind of down 

because I was thinking about my future and what all I wanted to do with it.

         I have so much passion I don't know what to do with it.

I love God, music, the homeless, and recently, people.

(The whole learning that I love people thing is kind of  cool).

Anyways,

So I have all of these passions and desires, but I don't really know where I want to go with it.

 I could see myself doing a ministry thing, but is that really for me?

I would love to do the music thing, but am I good enough to live off of it?

Can I get a job working with the homeless or people that pays enough for the rent?

I don't really know.

But sitting around worrying about it won't help my situation.

I need to live today and pursue my passions today.

God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me.

I just sometimes wish I knew what those plans were now.

But then again...

Where would be the adventure in that?

-Jonathan

Duty

Last weekend I was able to go to Shift Fall Camp and hang out with middle schoolers and I must be honest...

I kind of freaking loved it!

It was really cool just to get to know Travis and spend time with Sam and love on those guys simply because I love them. 

If that makes sense...

But there was one keyboard lead song that I was doing with Kelsey that I had never heard until three days before I had to play it. It's called Captivated, but I nicknamed it Hellsong. 

Basically I was trying to sit down and learn this piece and something wasn't connecting between my brain and my fingers or something because I could NOT sit down and play through the whole properly. But I had to be able to play it.

I'm the keyboard guy, right? It's just what I do.

What I'm saying is that I ended up losing sight of the song as something to worship God with as and replaced it with my duty to perform this song. 

That's a scary place to be.

Once I made that connection it ended up pulling together and it's actually a pretty fun piece. I was talking to Donna Hach about it and she had an interesting thought...

What if I wasn't able to learn the song because I wasn't worshiping him with it?

Could be true.

I think God expects us to put forth effort in to what we do, and hands us responsibilities. 

I also think God expects us to do it for him-something eternal. (John 6:27)

-Jonathan

(Thanks for the pic Andy)

Yo Soy Muy Artistico.

Hola el boyos!

I will every once in a while feel inspired to do a little photoshopping.

Just thought I'd post some of my most recent stuff! 

This is a mock-CD cover.