Break

Spring Break was like a calm battle.

I have felt more relaxed and more alive this week than I can remember feeling in a LONG time.

It probably had to do a ton with the fact I spent a lot of it writing and playing music with my friends. Honestly, few things on earth make me feel so happy. So ALIVE and FREE.

I felt like this is how I want to wake up every day. Call up a friend or two. Write some songs. Make something in 5/4 that transitions into 4/4 just for the heck of it. Record something for fun. Find out you are playing at the Warehouse in two weeks without prior notice.
I loved just about every second of it.

And yet there was the battle.
I have struggled more with porn/masturbation the past two weeks than I have in about a year or so.

It was scary.
I was terrified that it would become a habit again...but thank God it has not. Yet.
Be praying for that if you would like.

I also think I was able to sit down and evaluate the way I treated people...Mostly Kelsey, if you want to know the truth.
Not that I think I treat her poorly, but I always think there is room for improvement :)

Oh, and back to music, The Hazards of Love by the Decemberists came out.
One word: Inspiring
Now if I could get more people to appreciate its glory with me.
And the new mewithoutYou CD is coming out!!! Check out their new song on their myspace.

I hope you all are doing well,
Jonathan

PS check out these videos:
http://vimeo.com/1713668
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-NOZU2iPA8 (I am playing this at the Warehouse apparently :P )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9V4Zn85rnI (There are a few of these!)