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So Wednsday we had the college fair.
Which is equivilent to a depression fair for me.
Basically it consisted of me following Kelsey around as
she looked for school and me writing a song about how I don't
know what I want to do with my life.

College has always been kind of a tough subject for me.
It's always been hard for me to see light in it.
So I basically went through the school day pretty depressed with
all of that jazz on my mind.

Then I came to Shift early and talked to Jake, and for the first time...
I didn't feel alone when it came to college.
He was able to kind of give me an insight on what his experience was like-
not really knowing what he wanted, what a music education looked like etc.

It's hard for me to express with words how it made me feel though, because
I don't feel like this is doing justice to it.

I mean the idea of school has always just brought me down time after time after time.

And for fifteen or twenty minutes I felt...okay with it.
I felt like it's something I might be able to handle.
I felt like God had a plan for me(Plans to prosper me, not to harm me).
I guess I'll post my song(It's probably still rough since I haven't written music with it yet).

Song Idea:

Chorus:
I don't know
where the hell
I'm supposed to go
No I don't know
where it is
that you would have me go

Verse 1:
You never said it'd be easy
But did you ever say it'd be hard?
The road I've gone's made me weary,
but I see a light at the end of it all.

But still...

(Chorus)

Verse 2:
I've tried so hard to see clearly
And you've worked so hard for my trust.
When the future I hold shines so bleakly
It's to you that I give all my hope

But still...

(Chorus)

Bridge:
The world around me's running
toward shining goals
to leave me in the dust
God am I stuck here-doomed to rust

(Chorus 2x)